Perfect Conditions

"You can't sit around waiting for perfect conditions, or you'll never get anything done."

I'm sure we've all heard it a thousand times. And on some level, I'm sure we all believe it too. But still, we make excuses.

"After the baby is born, I'll have more time."

"Once I graduate, I'll focus on my family."

"The next promotion will mean enough money to get started."

"When the kids are older..."

"When I quit my job..."

"Next year it will happen."

"Next week will be better."

"I'll start tomorrow."

But guess what?  Each time one of these creeps up on us, it's met with a new stipulation.  And somehow years have passed, and we haven't accomplished our goals.  Tomorrow never came.

Life is finite, and not only is it finite, it's short.  Really, really short. But we piddle away the minutes on mindless games and wasted what ifs.

I'm ready to change that.

Not because conditions are perfect.  Not even because one of my stipulations has been met.  But because I deserve it, my family - my husband, my kids - we all deserve it.  What is this "it" I am so sure we deserve?  It's not perfection, but it's the closest I can provide.

We deserve healthy, home-cooked meals.  We deserve fit bodies that can carry us through however many years we have left.  I deserve a chance to be me and not just my husband's wife and my sons' mom.  They deserve a mom and wife who's happy and not as stressed as the one they have now.

Striving for perfection - that's stressful.  If you're anything like me, the thought of it shuts you down.  So I won't strive to be perfect, but I will promise to do the best I can every moment of every day.  I will promise to go easy on myself and stop beating myself up when my best is not as good as I think it should be and when it's not 100% of my resources.  Because sometimes to be the best I can for them means saving a little piece for me.

So I'm replacing my "what ifs", my "when conditions are perfects", and my "if I can't do it perfectly, I might as well quits" with this new daily mantra.

Today I will wake up and be ready to give it my all.

Today I will give my husband and children the attention and love they deserve.

Today I will work hard to make our house a home.

Today I will exercise and nourish my body with healthy food.

Today I will strive for excellence in everything I do.

Today I will prepare for tomorrow.

Today I will take the steps necessary to meet my goals.

Today I will forgive myself for my shortcomings.

Today I will not let my guilt and fear of failure hold me back.

Today I will love me."

So there it is in black and white - the promise I make to myself every morning when I wake up.  I encourage all of you to create your own daily mantra.  Positive thoughts lead to positive actions.  When we let go of fear, guilt, and regret, we are able to move forward and make the most of this finite life we've been given.

Why I Allow My Kids to Question Me

People often ask me why I allow my children to question my directions. There are several reasons. The first of which is that I don’t know what they will face in their lifetimes, and I want them to be prepared. If they always get their answers and instructions from me, they won’t know how to make decisions for themselves. I want them to know how to apply their moral framework to the situation and decide what is best. I am imparting my morals to them each day as they watch me live my life. And because I believe my morals are the right way to live (or else I wouldn’t believe in them), I hope that my children choose to adopt the same morals in their lives. But if they don’t, I accept that they are individuals living their own lives.

The second reason is again because I don’t know what they will face in their lifetimes. Will there be another Hitler? Another period of slavery? Or something else entirely? I believe that by allowing my children to question my instructions rather than blindly following authority, they will be less likely to engage in unethical behavior just because an authority figure tells them to. I want my children to be the ones using their house as a stop on the Underground Railroad instead of hunting people who are running for their freedom. I want my children to be the ones who say, “No, I will not kill that person just because they are different than me,” instead of capturing and torturing innocent men, women, and children.

My third reason is simple. I want my children to learn the appropriate way to question authority. I want them to learn that while they won’t always agree with what is being done, there is a certain level of respect that all people deserve. I want them to remember that even when there are disagreements that the other person still deserves that level of respect.

Yes, I am the mother, and yes, they should do what I tell them. But they should only do it if it is right. I make mistakes just like every other human being on this planet. And my fourth reason for allowing them to question me is that I want them to see what happens when you make a mistake. I want them to see me listen to their concerns, consider what they have to say, and then make a decision. I want them to see me stick to what I believe in. I want them to see me change my mind when I am being unreasonable. I want them to see sincere apologies – both in word and action. I want them to be able to witness humility in a safe environment. And I want them to know that it’s okay to be wrong. It’s okay to get caught up in a situation. It is even normal to do so. Most importantly, I want them to see that what makes it okay is the way you respond when you realize your mistake because I want my children to be able to admit when they’ve messed up. I want them to be able to say, “I screwed up. I’m sorry. Here’s what I am going to do to make this right, and here’s how I am going to try to prevent it happening again.” And then I want them to follow through on those words.

I want all of these things for my children because the world has enough people who blindly follow authority. The world has enough people who fall into the herd mentality and just do what everyone else is doing. I want to raise leaders. I want to raise people who will make a difference. And I don’t want to do what everyone has always done because I don’t want things to be the way they have always been.